i woke up today on the wrong side of the bed
and im so miserable

my past is really haunting me...
not in the sense of things are coming back and being thrown in my face
but like how and why was i that person...
Everything is making sense but im not gonna throw the victim card
I chose to do what I did
I made my bed
&&  i have been living it
I dont think anyone could do what i do and be able to keep moving
I got hurt and I learned
God gave me this strength to do and be better
&& now im ready to do and be better

I dont know how exactly im going to do this
but it's going to get done
tired of these feelings
dont know if they'll come bak
but im taking more action...

I have changed a lot
in my eyes
but i gotta take it up a notch

im ready
&& scared
I dont need anyone by my side
God is with me
im ready

I asked him to forgive me
and i feel in my heart he has
so much lifted off me in a matter of seconds
now its time to get focused
& do me....

i dont have a game plan
but i have the motivation

Hm, mayb ill just forget everything && move to NY nxt week
I have nothin in GA that i need

I love this place, but i dunno where i need to be to make this change
we'll see what happens
-Stay Tuned-

this is interesting....

*POOF* and your gone

i miss you && it's only been 2hrs

I hope i hear from him tomorrow

i dont know how to think or feel

#stuck

thanks heart

smh